Boo.
It makes it hard to relate and kindof alienates me from conversation almost like i have to really think before i speak because its not important in the scale of things, and what i really want to talk about is things like quantum physics and psychology.
Theres actually so much i want to learn and because im coming toward the end of my degree where im "expected" to get a job and join the rest of the troops, its a bit scary. ive found fear is pretty much the biggest thing that keeps people from doing what they truly want to, mostly the fear of not having the financial means to survive. money money money. I always thought i would go into advertising, y'know, generate some awesome ideas and campaigns; but, it kind of doesnt interest me anymore.
Fear of not being good enough in my field still lingers. All i really wanted to do was learn about everything that interests me, but withought a financial solution its not 100% possible.
I thought about doing an extra year study in teaching, maybe helping youth, push creativity. My mum is a teacher, she thought the same as me, she wanted to make a difference and isnt really that happy where she is. She said the system is so rigid, shes tried to make changes, but narrow minded others band together to keep things the same even if they arent working. Doesnt mean to say i couldn't try.
Im not to bothered about having shitloads of money as my new perspective on things understands that abundance in money really doesnt make happiness.
I understand the importance of variation in opinions ad am trying not to go down only one alleyway.
In Limbo
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